Okay, a quick confession.
I’m now still in Newcastle, UK – studying for my Bachelor degree in Graphic Design. Things have been hard. In fact, this is the hardest point of my life. I will tell the detail later. Things that I wanted to share are this:
Don’t worry about what’s gonna happen tomorrow. Do what’s in front of your eyes now.. Do all you have to do and put full effort.
What if I fail?
It’s okay, try again. Tomorrow, next month, next year, next opportunity. Life must go on!
What people gonna think about me if I fail?
Don’t worry, they don’t know what you’ve been through. They don’t know you. You don’t need to look fabulous in front of everybody. Real friends will never judge you anyway.
I guess I have a bad luck. I was just ALWAYS meeting the wrong person in the wrong time. Always.
You will never know. Those people’s existence might be the thing you will be thank of the most in the future. A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.
Talking about bad luck, some people isn’t more skilled than me but I don’t see them struggling as much as me. Why should i put double effort to get the same thing they achieved? Life is unfair!
Now you judge people. You can’t never measure how hard another person’s life is.
See there’s still no meaningful progress, I’m gonna be scolded by my tutor/boss again!
Face it. If you’re still not doing good, then you need to be scolded! Painful? Feel that pain. Record that pain. Next time, don’t do it again. Same thing with achievement. Record in your mind how joyful it is. Next time, aim for it again. They gonna hate you? Whatever, their appreciation won’t determine your future. They’re not the only way to achieve success.
Why can’t I be like him? or her? Why I’m born with no talent?
You’re not them and they are not you. Stop comparing. Everybody has their portion of blessing and of responsibility. You’re still saying you don’t have talent? Here I tell you one. Survive, it’s your talent.
Man, I feel like giving up. I’ve been troubling people’s life. I guess ending my life will be the best way to end the pain in me and others.
You have to keep alive to pay for your mistakes, dumbass. That money of your parents that you’ve wasted and that trust you’ve lost. Don’t make people traumatised by your immature decision making and make wherever place you died become haunted.
Enjoy your life NOW, not ‘if’. If I graduate, if I get a job, if I get a big salary, if I’m in relationship.. if if..
Do your work with enthusiasm everyday. Tackle that small chunks of work day by day. Keep doing it even if it looks impossible.
And one day.. it will be possible.
Muhammad Ali’s Quote – Adidas
Wishing the best for you!
Icy Delight 