Stuff I Learned So Far

Okay, a quick confession.

I’m now still in Newcastle, UK – studying for my Bachelor degree in Graphic Design. Things have been hard. In fact, this is the hardest point of my life. I will tell the detail later. Things that I wanted to share are this:

Don’t worry about what’s gonna happen tomorrow. Do what’s in front of your eyes now.. Do all you have to do and put full effort.

What if I fail?
It’s okay, try again. Tomorrow, next month, next year, next opportunity. Life must go on!

What people gonna think about me if I fail?
Don’t worry, they don’t know what you’ve been through. They don’t know you. You don’t need to look fabulous in front of everybody. Real friends will never judge you anyway.

I guess I have a bad luck. I was just ALWAYS meeting the wrong person in the wrong time. Always.
You will never know. Those people’s existence might be the thing you will be thank of the most in the future. A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor.

Talking about bad luck, some people isn’t more skilled than me but I don’t see them struggling as much as me. Why should i put double effort to get the same thing they achieved? Life is unfair!
Now you judge people. You can’t never measure how hard another person’s life is.

See there’s still no meaningful progress, I’m gonna be scolded by my tutor/boss again!
Face it. If you’re still not doing good, then you need to be scolded! Painful? Feel that pain. Record that pain. Next time, don’t do it again. Same thing with achievement. Record in your mind how joyful it is. Next time, aim for it again. They gonna hate you? Whatever, their appreciation won’t determine your future. They’re not the only way to achieve success.

Why can’t I be like him? or her? Why I’m born with no talent?
You’re not them and they are not you. Stop comparing. Everybody has their portion of blessing and of responsibility. You’re still saying you don’t have talent? Here I tell you one. Survive, it’s your talent.

Man, I feel like giving up. I’ve been troubling people’s life. I guess ending my life will be the best way to end the pain in me and others.
You have to keep alive to pay for your mistakes, dumbass. That money of your parents that you’ve wasted and that trust you’ve lost. Don’t make people traumatised by your immature decision making and make wherever place you died become haunted.

Enjoy your life NOW, not ‘if’. If I graduate, if I get a job, if I get a big salary, if I’m in relationship.. if if..
Do your work with enthusiasm everyday. Tackle that small chunks of work day by day. Keep doing it even if it looks impossible.
And one day.. it will be possible.

Muhammad Ali’s Quote – Adidas

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wishing the best for you!

10 Minutes Difference

So I went to the airport to catch my flight from the capital city’s airport, CGK, to JOG at 05.55 today. Quickly finding any trolley for my heavy cardboard box & luggage once I arrived there, rushing to the check-in counter, getting scolded by a middle-aged woman (“do you know queueing?” Of course I do ma’am. I’m not cutting the lines anyway, I’m just drawing my trolley near to yours, so relax), and at last, safely landing on the check-in counter. My clock is 05.05 when I came there (they said 45 mins prior to the take-off time is the allowed check-in time). Turns out the officer said that my clock is 10 mins late, they couldn’t do anything about this and lalalala… end. I talk to the supervisor and he said the same. No, they won’t let me pass. Might be different case if I’m from those important positions in the goverment. LOL

Then here I am, paid for another US $42, sitting in the airport’s Starbucks and waiting for my next flight at 10.30. Even called mom, really early in the morning, to transfer some money so that I can pay for another tickets. There she is, the super mom that every kid should be calling in times of trouble. There she is, the one whose voice will turn your made-up strength into bursting tears of guilt.

“I’m not mad, don’t cry. I’ll transfer the money. Go buy the new ticket, get some food and have fun there.”

Saying “I am not mad” was certainly not helping. Please mad at me, that would be better.
(Oh great, now I’m crying in Starbucks. Maybe I should explain to the barista that their coffee tastes so great that I cried for not be able to buy it.)

Mixed feelings.

In one side, I admit that it’s my fault to depart from my boarding house at 04.30. But… that wasn’t my first time and I still get the flight! I don’t know. Either I’ve been so lucky for so many times before, or the regulation has changed, like that officer keep mentioning to me

In the other side, I kinda feel annoyed because they don’t even direct their eyes to me when I talk to them. Again it happened. When someone take down of me. It’s okay, it’s just a matter of time. Also, the funny thing is, sometime they did 2 hrs flight delay and they don’t do anything as a replacement.. what a contrast.

Lesson buddy, lesson. Learn how 10 mins difference could make you spend another US $42 for nothing and wait for another 4 hrs. There’s actually so many things to complain about. I’ll just cut it here. As long as I make a mistake, I don’t think I should complain too much. Next time, I should have departed 1hr earlier then.

The other thing is, just because you often get God’s favor, doesn’t mean that you can get it anytime you’re in trouble.

Lastly, stay on schedule and cheers!